[ He says that so calmly and it cuts into her as sure and deep as any blade might. Surely that would have been less painful. ]
If that's really what you want--
[ She feels like her words are strangling her, like her own voice is trying to squeeze the breath out of her. ]
--if you want to throw away your life, then...!
[ She's trying to say it's his life, that he can do what he wants with it, but she's got terrible mental images behind her eyes and she can't even finish what she's saying. It's all she can do to keep the tears threatening to overflow at bay. ]
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If that's really what you want--
[ She feels like her words are strangling her, like her own voice is trying to squeeze the breath out of her. ]
--if you want to throw away your life, then...!
[ She's trying to say it's his life, that he can do what he wants with it, but she's got terrible mental images behind her eyes and she can't even finish what she's saying. It's all she can do to keep the tears threatening to overflow at bay. ]